Next, as promised, here is the BPOV for part of Chapter 20. This is from the time Esme leaves until Edward comes to her room!
“Bella?” I heard Edward’s voice, but it sounded distant.

Beautiful

Amazing

Caring

Not a gold-digger

Did he just say all of that? About me? I thought he felt that way...but to stand up to his mom? Did he just...

When I turned my face towards his, I could see the hesitancy behind his eyes as he held his hands up. He did...did he mean this?

I heard myself sob before I recognized the moisture on my cheeks.

I didn’t know what to do, so I ran.

The only room Edward had never invaded was my room. This was my safe haven when I couldn’t handle him anymore.

Over the past nine years, I had seen Edward be a lot of things, but I had never seen him be the man I saw today. When I saw him walk into the room, I expected him to snap at me for hitting his precious mother, but then he didn’t...and then he said...

I started to sob harder. My heart felt like it was ripped to shreds.

I was lying to myself if I didn’t see a family with Edward, but I couldn’t do it. I had never thought I wanted it before, but now that he was here, everyday, I wanted it. I wanted to trust him, but I didn’t know how because memories of her always loomed in my head, but now...now...God, I was so confused.

“Bella?” I heard him before I saw him. I looked up and was captivated by his eyes so I quickly glanced down. I couldn’t let him see his effect on me, not until I knew what it meant.

Could I move past this?

Could we move past this?

I wasn’t sure...but I was willing to try.


Last, is the outtake for Blind Intentions Chapter 21! Sorry it’s un-beta’d!
“So, what is going on with you two?” Emmett asked quietly in the kitchen. I followed the train of his sight to Bella, who was currently sitting under a pile or gifts bags and tissue paper.

“We’re going to try,” I answered. Try as I might I couldn’t help the smile that took over my face.

I heard Emmett talking, but was too busy looking over at Bella to listen. Her head turned and our eyes met. She returned my smile, before looking down and blushing lightly.

Alice hit her knee and she immediately went back to focusing on the thank you notes the women were currently working on.

WOO HOO! If you’ve made it to the end, you’re pretty awesome! Until next week, lots of love!!!!!
Kelly (SLM)

WOW! All I can say is WOW! Thank you all so much for taking the time to read and review! Truly, every review means the world to me and it’s because of you that I love our fandom! I take all of your words to heart and do my best to keep you happy with every update.

This will be long, so my apologies and it’ll be in standard form!

First, thank you to whoever thought to nominate me for a Shimmer Award! That is absolutely amazing, whenever voting starts I’ll put it out there.

Second, I wrote a Blind Intentions Outtake for The Fandom Against Domestic Violence. The outtake is of Edward & Bella at the cafe three days after their one-night stand. The compilation is available from Feb 1st-28th. Please visit http://fandomagainstdomesticviolence(dot)blogspot(dot)com/ for details!

Teaser for the FADV Outtake:
“Hey,” he spoke first. “I’m Edward Cullen.” He put his hand out, as if we’ve never met before, and I raised an eyebrow as I followed his lead.

“I’m Bella Swan,” I replied as our hands dropped.

I shifted nervously as he laughed.

“I’m sorry, I’ve been thinking up ideas to make this less awkward, but I’ve failed. So, how about we just get to know each other. Sound okay?” he asked. His words sounded genuine, and he seemed like a nice guy, so I nodded.


Next, as promised, here is the BPOV for part of Chapter 20. This is from the time Esme leaves until Edward comes to her room!
“Bella?” I heard Edward’s voice, but it sounded distant.

Beautiful

Amazing

Caring

Not a gold-digger

Did he just say all of that? About me? I thought he felt that way...but to stand up to his mom? Did he just...

When I turned my face towards his, I could see the hesitancy behind his eyes as he held his hands up. He did...did he mean this?

I heard myself sob before I recognized the moisture on my cheeks.

I didn’t know what to do, so I ran.

The only room Edward had never invaded was my room. This was my safe haven when I couldn’t handle him anymore.

Over the past nine years, I had seen Edward be a lot of things, but I had never seen him be the man I saw today. When I saw him walk into the room, I expected him to snap at me for hitting his precious mother, but then he didn’t...and then he said...

I started to sob harder. My heart felt like it was ripped to shreds.

I was lying to myself if I didn’t see a family with Edward, but I couldn’t do it. I had never thought I wanted it before, but now that he was here, everyday, I wanted it. I wanted to trust him, but I didn’t know how because memories of her always loomed in my head, but now...now...God, I was so confused.

“Bella?” I heard him before I saw him. I looked up and was captivated by his eyes so I quickly glanced down. I couldn’t let him see his effect on me, not until I knew what it meant.

Could I move past this?

Could we move past this?

I wasn’t sure...but I was willing to try.


Last, is the outtake for Blind Intentions Chapter 21! Sorry it’s un-beta’d!
“So, what is going on with you two?” Emmett asked quietly in the kitchen. I followed the train of his sight to Bella, who was currently sitting under a pile or gifts bags and tissue paper.

“We’re going to try,” I answered. Try as I might I couldn’t help the smile that took over my face.

I heard Emmett talking, but was too busy looking over at Bella to listen. Her head turned and our eyes met. She returned my smile, before looking down and blushing lightly.

Alice hit her knee and she immediately went back to focusing on the thank you notes the women were currently working on.

WOO HOO! If you’ve made it to the end, you’re pretty awesome! Until next week, lots of love!!!!!
Kelly (SLM)

Thank you so, so much for taking the time to read and review! It means more than words could express. I cherish each and every review I get, so thank you!

Teasers for Chapter 20 (The Esme Chapter) are already up on both the Fictionator’s Blog and The PicTease blogs.

Not much in the way of announcements, so here is the teaser for Chapter 20 (un-beta’d):
“What’s wrong?” Jasper asked as he came to sit down next to me. Nathan was currently taking on Emmett for the title of “Best Bowler in All of Forks” and I had dropped out of the race.

I shook my head, but Jasper’s face turned into an incredulous look. He wasn’t buying it.

“Bella?” The way he said her name made my heart ache. I couldn’t believe the show down we had been in the night before, and what was worse, was she was too busy to talk to me this morning.

“We, um, had an argument last night,” I whispered.

“You don’t say,” he replied sarcastically. “What happened?”

Thanks again!
Kelly (SLM)

Thank you so, so much for taking the time to read and review! It means more than words could express. I cherish each and every review I get, so thank you!

Teasers for Chapter 20 (The Esme Chapter) are already up on both the Fictionator’s Blog and The PicTease blogs.

Not much in the way of announcements, so here is the teaser for Chapter 20 (un-beta’d):
“What’s wrong?” Jasper asked as he came to sit down next to me. Nathan was currently taking on Emmett for the title of “Best Bowler in All of Forks” and I had dropped out of the race.

I shook my head, but Jasper’s face turned into an incredulous look. He wasn’t buying it.

“Bella?” The way he said her name made my heart ache. I couldn’t believe the show down we had been in the night before, and what was worse, was she was too busy to talk to me this morning.

“We, um, had an argument last night,” I whispered.

“You don’t say,” he replied sarcastically. “What happened?”

Thanks again!
Kelly (SLM)

Thank you SO much for reading and reviewing!!!

Blind Intentions won an Avant Garde Award! I found out on my birthday, which made it so much better considering the day before! So thank you to all that voted!

Chapter 19 is written, and in the process of being edited, added to...etc I can tell you Chapter 20 will absolutely see the return of Esme! Fun times a head!

Thank you for all of your support /w BI, it means the world!!!

Teaser for Ch 19: (un-beta’d)
On Nathan’s first day of kindergarten it was I who cried, not Bella. In fact, I distinctly remember being laughed at for being such a sap, but I couldn’t help it.

“Daddy.” Nathan pulled my hand down indicating that he wanted me to kneel down to his level.

“I’m right her,” I croaked out.

“It’s okay to be okay, it’s just kindergarten,” he laughed at me. His smile was infectious, and I knew I was over reacting, but he was my little boy. He wasn’t suppose to grow up.

“I know, you go have fun, I’ll be fine.” I waved him off with my hand.

“I’ll see you later.” He waved goodbye to me and Bella before marching straight into his classroom and to his seat.

When the classroom door shut I froze...that was it.

So now, on Nathan’s first day back to school, it was no surprise that I had turned back into a sap.

“Dad, are you going to cry again?” Nathan half whines, half laughed.

Love to all,
Kelly (SLM)

PS. Thank you so much! Honestly, the best compliment is to be told my story is authentic. I don't like rushing to the HEA, because I want the story to be believeable, and too much has gone wrong for these three for butterflies and rainbows to occur only a few months later!

Thank you SO much for reading and reviewing!!!

Blind Intentions won an Avant Garde Award! I found out on my birthday, which made it so much better considering the day before! So thank you to all that voted!

Chapter 19 is written, and in the process of being edited, added to...etc I can tell you Chapter 20 will absolutely see the return of Esme! Fun times a head!

Thank you for all of your support /w BI, it means the world!!!

Teaser for Ch 19: (un-beta’d)
On Nathan’s first day of kindergarten it was I who cried, not Bella. In fact, I distinctly remember being laughed at for being such a sap, but I couldn’t help it.

“Daddy.” Nathan pulled my hand down indicating that he wanted me to kneel down to his level.

“I’m right her,” I croaked out.

“It’s okay to be okay, it’s just kindergarten,” he laughed at me. His smile was infectious, and I knew I was over reacting, but he was my little boy. He wasn’t suppose to grow up.

“I know, you go have fun, I’ll be fine.” I waved him off with my hand.

“I’ll see you later.” He waved goodbye to me and Bella before marching straight into his classroom and to his seat.

When the classroom door shut I froze...that was it.

So now, on Nathan’s first day back to school, it was no surprise that I had turned back into a sap.

“Dad, are you going to cry again?” Nathan half whines, half laughed.

Love to all,
Kelly (SLM)

Thank you SO much for reading and reviewing!!!

Blind Intentions won an Avant Garde Award! I found out on my birthday, which made it so much better considering the day before! So thank you to all that voted!

Chapter 19 is written, and in the process of being edited, added to...etc I can tell you Chapter 20 will absolutely see the return of Esme! Fun times a head!

Thank you for all of your support /w BI, it means the world!!!

Teaser for Ch 19: (un-beta’d)
On Nathan’s first day of kindergarten it was I who cried, not Bella. In fact, I distinctly remember being laughed at for being such a sap, but I couldn’t help it.

“Daddy.” Nathan pulled my hand down indicating that he wanted me to kneel down to his level.

“I’m right her,” I croaked out.

“It’s okay to be okay, it’s just kindergarten,” he laughed at me. His smile was infectious, and I knew I was over reacting, but he was my little boy. He wasn’t suppose to grow up.

“I know, you go have fun, I’ll be fine.” I waved him off with my hand.

“I’ll see you later.” He waved goodbye to me and Bella before marching straight into his classroom and to his seat.

When the classroom door shut I froze...that was it.

So now, on Nathan’s first day back to school, it was no surprise that I had turned back into a sap.

“Dad, are you going to cry again?” Nathan half whines, half laughed.

Love to all,
Kelly (SLM)

Thank you so much for taking the time to read and review Chapter 16 of Blind Intentions :) It means a lot to see what others thing and feel...good, bad, or indifferent!

Blind Intentions is up for 3 Avant Garde Awards in Round 2 for Best Shock Value, Best Must Read, and Saddest/Make You Cry! Check it out and vote! http://twilightfb-awards(dot)blogspot(dot)com/p/vote.html

Also my cherry exchange submission: Breaking Faith is up for voting until tonight! Take a look and vote, you can choose your top 3! http://www(dot)fanfiction(dot)net/u/2530160/The_Cherry_Exchange

I hope to have Chapter 17 out early next week and will start writing ahead so Christmas shouldn’t affect my updating schedule!

Until then, here is a short teaser!

“So be honest, my dad called you?” I questioned the second I sat down.

“You’re very smart Edward, and yes your father may have called.” Dr. Devon was an older man who I was pretty sure I’d passed a time or two in the hallways, but never stopped to talk. He was newer, no wife, no kids that I knew of. People raved about him, but I didn’t really know him.

“I don’t really know how this works,” I admitted honestly.

“It’s simple, I ask questions, you answer. You talk, I listen, and visa versa.” I nodded and he began. “So tell me why you wanted to talk to someone.”

“Two months ago I was married to someone who I thought I loved, my family wasn’t perfect but somewhat normal, I thought I was a good enough father to my son and was wrong, and I’m slowly starting to realize I let my work invade my life.”

“What changed?” He asked.

“Well my son was kidnapped and almost murdered. My wife was behind his kidnapping, my mom wrote a note trying to exonerate my wife, my parents are now divorcing, and I’m realized things about my son’s mother that I never knew before. Oh and I was the equivalent of a present, deadbeat dad.” I laughed at the mockery which was now my life.

Thank you so much!
Kelly (SLM)

Thank you so much for taking the time to read and review Chapter 16 of Blind Intentions :) It means a lot to see what others thing and feel...good, bad, or indifferent!

Blind Intentions is up for 3 Avant Garde Awards in Round 2 for Best Shock Value, Best Must Read, and Saddest/Make You Cry! Check it out and vote! http://twilightfb-awards(dot)blogspot(dot)com/p/vote.html

Also my cherry exchange submission: Breaking Faith is up for voting until tonight! Take a look and vote, you can choose your top 3! http://www(dot)fanfiction(dot)net/u/2530160/The_Cherry_Exchange

I hope to have Chapter 17 out early next week and will start writing ahead so Christmas shouldn’t affect my updating schedule!

Until then, here is a short teaser!

“So be honest, my dad called you?” I questioned the second I sat down.

“You’re very smart Edward, and yes your father may have called.” Dr. Devon was an older man who I was pretty sure I’d passed a time or two in the hallways, but never stopped to talk. He was newer, no wife, no kids that I knew of. People raved about him, but I didn’t really know him.

“I don’t really know how this works,” I admitted honestly.

“It’s simple, I ask questions, you answer. You talk, I listen, and visa versa.” I nodded and he began. “So tell me why you wanted to talk to someone.”

“Two months ago I was married to someone who I thought I loved, my family wasn’t perfect but somewhat normal, I thought I was a good enough father to my son and was wrong, and I’m slowly starting to realize I let my work invade my life.”

“What changed?” He asked.

“Well my son was kidnapped and almost murdered. My wife was behind his kidnapping, my mom wrote a note trying to exonerate my wife, my parents are now divorcing, and I’m realized things about my son’s mother that I never knew before. Oh and I was the equivalent of a present, deadbeat dad.” I laughed at the mockery which was now my life.

Thank you so much!
Kelly (SLM)

Thank you all so much for taking the time to read and review Chapter 15. The ride is going to start becoming slightly more wild from here on out. No ETA on Chapter 16, sometime next week though. On top of the teaser in this review reply, check out The Fictionator’s Blog & the PicTease Blog on Monday’s for additional teasers. I also post random teasers and answer questions in the Blind Intentions thread on Twilighted!

Right now the Cherry Exchange has opened their public voting poll up until Dec 15th. I wrote a one-shot called Breaking Faith :) They’re allowing all to vote for their Top 3, on top of having a reader’s challenge. If you read & review all 34 entries in the Cherry Exchange, you can submit your reviews in for a chance at winning a t-shirt! More details on their FFn site, so please check it out! http://www(dot)fanfiction(dot)net/u/2530160/The_Cherry_Exchange

Hope everyone has a wonderful week! Here is a Chapter 16 Teaser:
“Are you sure?” Bella  with pleading eyes.

“Yeah, it’s just...I don’t even know where to stay,” I sighed. “I’m gonna go call my dad.”

As I stood to walk away and find my phone Bella spoke up again.

“Edward, I know we’ve never been extremely close, but you used to be able to talk to me. I don’t know what I did to make that change, but I am here to listen if you need someone to talk to.” I could see the distance forming in her eyes and it killed me to see her like this.

“You didn’t,” I called out to her as she turned her back to me.

She turned around with a puzzle looked.

“You didn’t do anything wrong. You never did, it’s me. It’s always been me, then and now.” Bella’s face grew serious as she nodded and walked away.

Three rings on my phone later and my dad answered.

“I need a referral for a psychologist.” I ignored the pleasantries and got straight to the point of why I had called.

“I thought you both liked Dr. Banner, it may take...” I cut him off.

“Not for Nathan...for me,” I clarified.

“Oh.” Silence.

Love to all!
Kelly (SLM)

Thank you all so much for taking the time to read and review Chapter 15. The ride is going to start becoming slightly more wild from here on out. No ETA on Chapter 16, sometime next week though. On top of the teaser in this review reply, check out The Fictionator’s Blog & the PicTease Blog on Monday’s for additional teasers. I also post random teasers and answer questions in the Blind Intentions thread on Twilighted!

Right now the Cherry Exchange has opened their public voting poll up until Dec 15th. I wrote a one-shot called Breaking Faith :) They’re allowing all to vote for their Top 3, on top of having a reader’s challenge. If you read & review all 34 entries in the Cherry Exchange, you can submit your reviews in for a chance at winning a t-shirt! More details on their FFn site, so please check it out! http://www(dot)fanfiction(dot)net/u/2530160/The_Cherry_Exchange

Hope everyone has a wonderful week! Here is a Chapter 16 Teaser:
“Are you sure?” Bella  with pleading eyes.

“Yeah, it’s just...I don’t even know where to stay,” I sighed. “I’m gonna go call my dad.”

As I stood to walk away and find my phone Bella spoke up again.

“Edward, I know we’ve never been extremely close, but you used to be able to talk to me. I don’t know what I did to make that change, but I am here to listen if you need someone to talk to.” I could see the distance forming in her eyes and it killed me to see her like this.

“You didn’t,” I called out to her as she turned her back to me.

She turned around with a puzzle looked.

“You didn’t do anything wrong. You never did, it’s me. It’s always been me, then and now.” Bella’s face grew serious as she nodded and walked away.

Three rings on my phone later and my dad answered.

“I need a referral for a psychologist.” I ignored the pleasantries and got straight to the point of why I had called.

“I thought you both liked Dr. Banner, it may take...” I cut him off.

“Not for Nathan...for me,” I clarified.

“Oh.” Silence.

Love to all!
Kelly (SLM)

Thank you all so much for taking the time to read and review Chapter 15. The ride is going to start becoming slightly more wild from here on out. No ETA on Chapter 16, sometime next week though. On top of the teaser in this review reply, check out The Fictionator’s Blog & the PicTease Blog on Monday’s for additional teasers. I also post random teasers and answer questions in the Blind Intentions thread on Twilighted!

Right now the Cherry Exchange has opened their public voting poll up until Dec 15th. I wrote a one-shot called Breaking Faith :) They’re allowing all to vote for their Top 3, on top of having a reader’s challenge. If you read & review all 34 entries in the Cherry Exchange, you can submit your reviews in for a chance at winning a t-shirt! More details on their FFn site, so please check it out! http://www(dot)fanfiction(dot)net/u/2530160/The_Cherry_Exchange

Hope everyone has a wonderful week! Here is a Chapter 16 Teaser:
“Are you sure?” Bella  with pleading eyes.

“Yeah, it’s just...I don’t even know where to stay,” I sighed. “I’m gonna go call my dad.”

As I stood to walk away and find my phone Bella spoke up again.

“Edward, I know we’ve never been extremely close, but you used to be able to talk to me. I don’t know what I did to make that change, but I am here to listen if you need someone to talk to.” I could see the distance forming in her eyes and it killed me to see her like this.

“You didn’t,” I called out to her as she turned her back to me.

She turned around with a puzzle looked.

“You didn’t do anything wrong. You never did, it’s me. It’s always been me, then and now.” Bella’s face grew serious as she nodded and walked away.

Three rings on my phone later and my dad answered.

“I need a referral for a psychologist.” I ignored the pleasantries and got straight to the point of why I had called.

“I thought you both liked Dr. Banner, it may take...” I cut him off.

“Not for Nathan...for me,” I clarified.

“Oh.” Silence.

Love to all!
Kelly (SLM)

Wow! You all are truly amazing! I’ve never had such an immediate response to a chapter before, so thank you for that! Even though my review replies may seem standard I swear I read every single word and answer or clarify anything I can at the time. When I first started writing BI I thought 100 reviews would be cool and I’m now over 1,400 which is absolutely amazing!

I won’t bore you with announcements so I’ll make this quick! Blind Intentions is being votes on in the Rare Gem Awards and Avant Garde Awards. Links to both are in the bottom a/n of the update. Also, there is a link for a contest I’m co-hosting. Voting opens up Wednesday, so please take a peak and vote! Lots of amazing wintery stories to choose from!

A piece near and dear to my heart that I actually love more than BI---I know gasp, is Breaking Faith. Public voting begins Dec 5th for the Cherry Exchange so check it out and vote!

Enough of that, onto what you really want! The teaser for Chapter 15:

“McDonalds?” He looked so angelic and innocent, I just wanted to save the image in my head forever. I nodded and the cutest grin played on his lips.

“Now it may be a little cold,” I warned as I pushed the bed’s tray table over him as he sat up to eat.

“Don’t care...” he took a bite. “Must eat....” and another. “So...so good.” He devoured french fry after french fry while alternating with his cheeseburger.

The doctor in me screamed to tell him to slow down, but the dad told the doctor to shut the hell up.

Bella started picking at her salad while I made work of my own meal.

I’d hoped this would be the first of many family meals to come in the future.

Love to you all!
Kelly (SLM)

PS. You can find me on twitter at @SammieLynnsMom or hop into the BI Twilighted Thread to share your thoughts, opinions, theories...etc. Remember, in the month of December I’ll be selecting 2 people at random, via the thread, to star in a one-shot I’m writing where Esme gets hit by a train! http://www(dot)twilighted(dot)net/forum/viewtopic.php?f=44&t=12545

Wow! You all are truly amazing! I’ve never had such an immediate response to a chapter before, so thank you for that! Even though my review replies may seem standard I swear I read every single word and answer or clarify anything I can at the time. When I first started writing BI I thought 100 reviews would be cool and I’m now over 1,400 which is absolutely amazing!

I won’t bore you with announcements so I’ll make this quick! Blind Intentions is being votes on in the Rare Gem Awards and Avant Garde Awards. Links to both are in the bottom a/n of the update. Also, there is a link for a contest I’m co-hosting. Voting opens up Wednesday, so please take a peak and vote! Lots of amazing wintery stories to choose from!

A piece near and dear to my heart that I actually love more than BI---I know gasp, is Breaking Faith. Public voting begins Dec 5th for the Cherry Exchange so check it out and vote!

Enough of that, onto what you really want! The teaser for Chapter 15:

“McDonalds?” He looked so angelic and innocent, I just wanted to save the image in my head forever. I nodded and the cutest grin played on his lips.

“Now it may be a little cold,” I warned as I pushed the bed’s tray table over him as he sat up to eat.

“Don’t care...” he took a bite. “Must eat....” and another. “So...so good.” He devoured french fry after french fry while alternating with his cheeseburger.

The doctor in me screamed to tell him to slow down, but the dad told the doctor to shut the hell up.

Bella started picking at her salad while I made work of my own meal.

I’d hoped this would be the first of many family meals to come in the future.

Love to you all!
Kelly (SLM)

PS. You can find me on twitter at @SammieLynnsMom or hop into the BI Twilighted Thread to share your thoughts, opinions, theories...etc. Remember, in the month of December I’ll be selecting 2 people at random, via the thread, to star in a one-shot I’m writing where Esme gets hit by a train! http://www(dot)twilighted(dot)net/forum/viewtopic.php?f=44&t=12545

Thank you :)

Outtake from Chapter 10:
I continued to pick at the sandwich I’d gotten to eat when Edward excused himself to grab a drink to bring upstairs.

If you had told me a month ago that my life would literally been flipped over I would have grabbed Nathan and ran for the hills. As a mom nothing can prepare you for the day your child goes missing. Nor could it prepare me for the day when I’d found out it was the hands of someone close to us.

I was never a fan of Tanya’s, but not for the reason most people would think. After Nathan was born any romantic feelings I had towards Edward had died. I realized then that, at one time I thought he had a lot of the characteristics that I wanted, but in the end it was nothing more than wanting a “happily ever after” ending. I blamed the hormones.

Edward was kind and considerate, but his family almost made me run for the hills on several occasions. I was sure Esme had her reasons for hating me, as deranged as they probably were, but it didn’t matter. I saw Edward for who he was, a man who would never step up against his mother. It was that realization that caused me to break everything off. I was not willing to become “second rate” to anyone for the rest of my life. If that meant being alone then at least I’d come first to me.

When I met Tanya I didn’t really have an opinion of her. She seemed nice although she seemed fake. I monitored her interactions with Nathan for a while, but he seemed to be okay with her and Edward seemed to fall in love with her. It meant “family” functions became less awkward because Esme was too busy kissing Tanya’s ass then telling me I was a gold digger. Funny thing is I had a job, and Tanya didn’t, but I was the gold digger. I internally shrugged. I obviously hadn’t been a good judge of character, but I refused to let that happen again.

Truth be told I was terrified to live with Edward. We had no problem being civil, even friendly, towards each other but really I didn’t know him anymore. I suppose I could use this time to get to know him again, but I didn’t know if he was worth the effort. I’d watched him go up against his family twice in the past twenty four hours, but I didn’t know when the other shoe would fall. He claimed that things were over with Tanya when she wanted to go on vacation, yet I still walk in on....I shook my head. I did not need to visualize that again!

I heard my name being called which broke me from the fog overtaking my thoughts. I looked up to see a woman standing before me. Dark shoulder length hair with a slight girl, way too much make-up, and a strapless silk dress. She was NOT a local for sure.

“Excuse me, are you Bella Swan?” She asked. Her voice was polite, but I didn’t know her.

“Can I help you?”

“I’m Kate Winston, I was wondering if I could talk to you for a few minutes.”

“I’m sorry I don’t talk to the media.”

“Oh I’m not a reporter.”

“Then who are you?”

“I’m Garrett’s wife, Garret Randall.”

My blood ran cold. I knew that name and it belonged to the man I wished death upon. How his wife had the nerve to want to speak to me shocked me. Kate took my silence as a green light to begin talking.

She explained how amazing Garrett was and they had two children together, that it was all Tanya’s fault when they started having an affair he went crazy, and she was pleading with me to lessen the charges. I continued to listen to this woman, who was out of her mind until I found my voice back.

I stood up, my fists white knuckling the table in an attempt not to swing at her.

“You want me to what?!” I screeched whispered.

“They say he’ll go away for twenty years, by then our kids will be in college. As a mother you have to understand how important it is to be there for your children, I’m just asking that you make them let him out after a few years. I don’t want to be a single parent.”

“Your husband,” I spat. “Took my seven year old little boy, stuffed him into a bag, and threw him off a cliff! And you want to talk to me about being a single parent? I almost lost him and you....”

“He’s alive though now, he’s not dead,” She rushed.

Edward chose that moment to walk up. I could tell he was taking accounting of our conversation and immediately took a defense stance in front of me.

I wasn’t sure how I felt about that, but in the moment, I was only thankful I would go to jail for killing her. The nerve of this woman.

I was so wrapped up in my own thoughts I completely missed my dad showing up and escorting Kate away.

When Edward still hadn’t let go of me in the elevator I wanted to push away, but he was the only thing keeping me from hunting this Kate Winston down.

When we entered Nathan’s room I was reminded of why I was here. My baby was laying in that bed and I needed to get a grip for when he woke up.

The moment I chose to sit down and grab his hand his eyes flew open.

Relieve spread through me as I told him hi.

When he leaned up towards me to tell me his first recount of his abduction I went numb.

Up until that point it was all speculation, strong speculation, but still speculation.

Now we knew without a doubt it was Tanya.

And I knew, without a doubt, I would kill her the next time I saw her.

Outtake from Chapter 10:
I continued to pick at the sandwich I’d gotten to eat when Edward excused himself to grab a drink to bring upstairs.

If you had told me a month ago that my life would literally been flipped over I would have grabbed Nathan and ran for the hills. As a mom nothing can prepare you for the day your child goes missing. Nor could it prepare me for the day when I’d found out it was the hands of someone close to us.

I was never a fan of Tanya’s, but not for the reason most people would think. After Nathan was born any romantic feelings I had towards Edward had died. I realized then that, at one time I thought he had a lot of the characteristics that I wanted, but in the end it was nothing more than wanting a “happily ever after” ending. I blamed the hormones.

Edward was kind and considerate, but his family almost made me run for the hills on several occasions. I was sure Esme had her reasons for hating me, as deranged as they probably were, but it didn’t matter. I saw Edward for who he was, a man who would never step up against his mother. It was that realization that caused me to break everything off. I was not willing to become “second rate” to anyone for the rest of my life. If that meant being alone then at least I’d come first to me.

When I met Tanya I didn’t really have an opinion of her. She seemed nice although she seemed fake. I monitored her interactions with Nathan for a while, but he seemed to be okay with her and Edward seemed to fall in love with her. It meant “family” functions became less awkward because Esme was too busy kissing Tanya’s ass then telling me I was a gold digger. Funny thing is I had a job, and Tanya didn’t, but I was the gold digger. I internally shrugged. I obviously hadn’t been a good judge of character, but I refused to let that happen again.

Truth be told I was terrified to live with Edward. We had no problem being civil, even friendly, towards each other but really I didn’t know him anymore. I suppose I could use this time to get to know him again, but I didn’t know if he was worth the effort. I’d watched him go up against his family twice in the past twenty four hours, but I didn’t know when the other shoe would fall. He claimed that things were over with Tanya when she wanted to go on vacation, yet I still walk in on....I shook my head. I did not need to visualize that again!

I heard my name being called which broke me from the fog overtaking my thoughts. I looked up to see a woman standing before me. Dark shoulder length hair with a slight girl, way too much make-up, and a strapless silk dress. She was NOT a local for sure.

“Excuse me, are you Bella Swan?” She asked. Her voice was polite, but I didn’t know her.

“Can I help you?”

“I’m Kate Winston, I was wondering if I could talk to you for a few minutes.”

“I’m sorry I don’t talk to the media.”

“Oh I’m not a reporter.”

“Then who are you?”

“I’m Garrett’s wife, Garret Randall.”

My blood ran cold. I knew that name and it belonged to the man I wished death upon. How his wife had the nerve to want to speak to me shocked me. Kate took my silence as a green light to begin talking.

She explained how amazing Garrett was and they had two children together, that it was all Tanya’s fault when they started having an affair he went crazy, and she was pleading with me to lessen the charges. I continued to listen to this woman, who was out of her mind until I found my voice back.

I stood up, my fists white knuckling the table in an attempt not to swing at her.

“You want me to what?!” I screeched whispered.

“They say he’ll go away for twenty years, by then our kids will be in college. As a mother you have to understand how important it is to be there for your children, I’m just asking that you make them let him out after a few years. I don’t want to be a single parent.”

“Your husband,” I spat. “Took my seven year old little boy, stuffed him into a bag, and threw him off a cliff! And you want to talk to me about being a single parent? I almost lost him and you....”

“He’s alive though now, he’s not dead,” She rushed.

Edward chose that moment to walk up. I could tell he was taking accounting of our conversation and immediately took a defense stance in front of me.

I wasn’t sure how I felt about that, but in the moment, I was only thankful I would go to jail for killing her. The nerve of this woman.

I was so wrapped up in my own thoughts I completely missed my dad showing up and escorting Kate away.

When Edward still hadn’t let go of me in the elevator I wanted to push away, but he was the only thing keeping me from hunting this Kate Winston down.

When we entered Nathan’s room I was reminded of why I was here. My baby was laying in that bed and I needed to get a grip for when he woke up.

The moment I chose to sit down and grab his hand his eyes flew open.

Relieve spread through me as I told him hi.

When he leaned up towards me to tell me his first recount of his abduction I went numb.

Up until that point it was all speculation, strong speculation, but still speculation.

Now we knew without a doubt it was Tanya.

And I knew, without a doubt, I would kill her the next time I saw her.

Edward~

First let me start by saying I miss you. Being apart from you is making my
heart break everyday, but I have to stay away, at least until the truth is
out. I know the cops came looking for
me, but I swear to you I didn't do this. I don't know who has set me up, but I
swear it wasn't me. Honestly, if I had to guess, I'd say Bella is behind all
of this. She's so starved for attention she'd kill her own child to get it,
maybe you could refer to someone for that. You shouldn't listen to anything
Garrett has to say, first he confesses and now says it's my fault. It wasn't
me!

I've been away getting more evidence together and once I can prove my
innocence we can be together again. We can start that family you always wanted
to have together.

I love you Edward and I hope you're missing me as much as I'm missing you!

Yours forever, until death do us part, wait for me Edward,
Tanya

Thank you so much!

Edward~

First let me start by saying I miss you. Being apart from you is making my
heart break everyday, but I have to stay away, at least until the truth is
out. I know the cops came looking for
me, but I swear to you I didn't do this. I don't know who has set me up, but I
swear it wasn't me. Honestly, if I had to guess, I'd say Bella is behind all
of this. She's so starved for attention she'd kill her own child to get it,
maybe you could refer to someone for that. You shouldn't listen to anything
Garrett has to say, first he confesses and now says it's my fault. It wasn't
me!

I've been away getting more evidence together and once I can prove my
innocence we can be together again. We can start that family you always wanted
to have together.

I love you Edward and I hope you're missing me as much as I'm missing you!

Yours forever, until death do us part, wait for me Edward,
Tanya