oh bella really does not have a good self image does she poor girl what could have happened to make her this way?

she had a nice birthday like alice said they need to make more pleasant memories and i wonder when edward will try  to kiss her i'm sure he recgonises she's fragile an dosent want to push it

oh good for bella she's happy just hold on to that feeling

they are getting very familiar and comfortable with each other

what a conversation lol, wait till bella  gives up her v card then she may have different ideas  about using the gift

that was a nice easy comfortable weekend

is it significent that the nightmares occur on the nights bella orgasms?

they finally did the deed and it was somewhat enjoyable for her

i'm glad that bella has reached a point where she wants to change and escape from her eating disorder  wsith edwards help i'm sure she can rose needs to keep her mouth shut pregnancy does n ot make you nasty

i'm sure living with edward will be good for bella and i'm sure that proposal is not far away

thats so sad that she lost her baby but realistic i suspose, more memories and bad ones at that will she ever be free of the trauma? 

wow that clinic really did bella good so lets hope a lot of her problems are in her past and she has a long and happy marriage

very nice, very very nice, emmett is super handsome and not someone you'd want to kick out of bed in the morning,  great twist at the end bty it's always got to be emmett and rosalie for me if it's more than a one shot so i'm well pleased with the hot ending  

i'm not even sure i can reason out her behaviour over the years, she knew what carlisle was when she fell in love and married him so she knew what was going to happen to edward she did not need to turn her back on her children, nobody ever asked her that, carmen sounds like she beged her to be a mother again but esme decided to pick the bottle, i cant see how she would repair this or if she even cares enough to want to, esme is a wreck now she'll be suicidal when her secret is exposed cause these things always are, great chapter thanks tracy

oh lord that tanya is a bit mental not a bit a lot, edward has no feeling for her just uses her for sex,  i wonder how he met her? and how long they had been together at this point? what she let him do was not good and poor gianna what happened to her? i'm so glad he is completly different with bella, thats what love does it softens even the hardest of men,

intresting, is the spanking thing susposed to be a religious thing part of them being in this christian pologamy religion as in everybody in town does it or is it just them? edward is a bit like a dom as in he is in charge, his wives have to be respectful at all times,  they receive an allowance and they receive a physical punishment for trangressions, which they  accept as  good for them (not saying it isnt) only the sex is vanilla (well so far it is) do you think that or am on the wrong track completly hope you dont mind me asking thanks reading on

edward paint a very positive picture of his lifestyle and he obviously loves both rose and alice very much , but i just dont get this punishment bit just because they have a polyamous marriage he can physicaly  punish his wives?  do the wives have to agree to being punished this way in order for the marriage to go ahead?  i'm really intrested as i dont care if i had one or two husbands i'm pretty sure none of them would get me to strip and be spanked, and can they punish edward in the same way? if his behaviour is lacking or is it just the wives? thanks   i caught the teaser on just a sip so look forward to the next chapter

is it just me or is that really harsh!! he smacks her on the bed and in the corner for fidgiting then god only knows how many over his knee with a skirt, then with knickers, then with nothing, then with a belt for christ sake what did the last two have to be extra hard for?  does he have a set max time  or amount? or does he just finish when he likes? and bella watches i'm not sure what to make of her reaction does she know the family use dd if not wouldnt she be more horrified? i'm not sure for the first time she would see it as a beautiful submissive siuation especially with alice sobbing uncontrobally and begging not to be hit with a belt whilst clinging on to his shirt

 thankyou for answering my questions , hope i'm not  being a pain but totally smitten with this story and how they live especially as it's based on real life, i could  not get my head round this dd thing so i googled it to read up on it found lots to read lots negative and some positive  so in that way i'm glad that here it's seen as a positive in the marriage by all three of them

good god what a horiffic childhood her father has to be the worst advert for the pologimist lifestyle ever, that sort of abuse cant be the norm, i'm surprised rosalie can function at all i guess edward really did save her in many ways, does rosalie still have contact with her family? i wouldn't blame her if she did not, does the dd life conflict with her memories of childhood abuse like the spanking? aro it seeems did it a hell of a lot, or is it viewed differently because it's edward doing it within her marriage? i also like the fact that alice is now ok (i was a bit worried) and she says again about her life everything in consentual and poor bella is so confused i think i would be to,  thanks so much for another chapter really into this  story now, more please

hey great chapter,  loved hearing all about the history of the family but bella cant use a lot of that stuff in her report cause it's illegal or was a lot of that conversation more of a personal nature satisfying her own need for info as bella has recgonised her feeling for edward growing, bella admits to loving him now but will she tell him? or be put off with the dd stuff, i'd like to hear the second half of the conversation when they say why they choose dd definately from rose i'm curious why she chooses it given her abusive past, also i'd like to see what rose means by a session, why does she crave it? what relief does it give her? if things progress between edward anf bella some tough choices need to be made and issues addressed, i'll look forward to the next chapter but when you can, i hope your cousin is feeling better and your alergies lessen, thanks tracy

i'm not sure if my comprehension about all the dd stuff is still not good enough but i feel bad for rose and think edward should cut her some slack, not dish out extra punishment for having a smart mouth she has shown him her vunerable side something he knows is not often shown, by her asking for a physical release for her emotions much more severe than is regular she is showing that the bella situation is affecting her badly and edward has never left her after a spanking and he chooses this time the worse spanking to leave her she probably just cant understand why he's  different,  both his wives need him,  lots ...., which begs the question how will he have time for bella as well if that's how they decide to go, alice seems more on board but then she did not have a childhood like rosalie and edward is correct when he says he needs to put the two wives he has first,  we all have feelings in life but it's not always the right thing to act on them, as usual a great thought provoking chapter, thanks tracy

hey there another great chapter, wow bellas story is enough to create nightmares what a frighteningly  sad story that is,  being held hostage is bad enough but she got to see her father murdered in front of her, but back at cullen manor,  bella does not think much of herself or her abilities to find a soul mate but it's there this connection she has with edward and from what he said to her in the music room he feels it too, i think alice may get her way after all, i cant wait to hear what is said at the family meeting, thanks tracy 

personally i prefer longer chapters even if it means you update less often that way i remember the story better, i find short chapter are read in the blink of an eye and easier to forget, thanks

another superb chapter, glad that all the punishment stuff got resolved, thge family meeting rosalie was trying to keep her temper in check, alice has had her say but maybe it the baby thing was such a big issue for all they should have brought it up before now over one year after she agreed to try for a baby,  but at least rose (i hope) understands why alice refuses to try,  she must do to say to herself about fighting for her family, thanks tracy

great chapter, i personally liked the office carrying on's still enjoying this story, thanks tracy

great chapter, they really seem to be getting things moving along, but still such a lot for bella to take on board, look forward to more and love this story, thanks tracy

found this story after reading just a sip, and scary first chapter but you warned us thanks

the whole family pulled out all the stops to welcome them in to the fold, now bella can be safe surounded by people who love her and want to help her edward is a real rock for bella i hope emmett is going to be ok his guilt is huge and carlisle was trying to help i'm sure bella wont hold it against him, fantastic chapter

that was shocking and sad that poor girl i hope she's not traumatised for life with what james did to her that was brutal and cruel shamefully cruel, at least bella get a measure of peace with edward and that has to bode well   for the future,

   edward is a real rock for bella i hope emmett is going to be ok his guilt is huge and carlisle was trying to help i'm sure bella wont hold it against him ( sorry if this last bit was in the wrong chapter before)

edward  is a pure tower  of support especially for a younger person(this probally has a lot to do with his parents) they have declared their love for eachother i just hope it's not to soon for her she's spilling more of her secrets to him and having breakthroughs in therapy, this is all good,  yes?

 this chapter was so well written, so very emotional i could have cried for bella when she describes the rape but therapy does seem to be helping her and her mind set is much more positive, edward is so patient,  but what of emmett he is going to pieces?

+another fab chapter sorry if i havent mentioned it before but i'm enjoying reading this it's well written and totally engaging story   bella is getting more and more comfortable with her life and broke another barrier with edward and if naming things pandora and adam does it then so be it  it's lovely how he has so much patience,  i like the chat between bella and emmett at the end

poor bella and edward they had a bit of a blip at the begining glad that was soon sorted  as for james he is a total nutter, conflicted(he calls himself) he's not conlicted he's a bloody menace and needs locking up asap

rose and emmett are good together, i like her immediate  responses to his very hansome body and face,  and she is a good support for him when he deals with bella

  poor edward he was drowning and diddn't know what to do  his family support is what will get him through at least he is sure of his love for bella and what about rose i like that she is a friendly & understanding girl (too often she is a bitch in ff) all in all im glad i stopped by the coffee shop yesterday, well done 

dry humping thats a step in the right direction and they both got off on it there happy so lets hope they keep moving on i'm sure they will fantastic story a great read thanks

oh great first chapter, love the idea that bella is a vamp not edward and that they connect through scent, i think i'm really going to enjoy reading this, i got this story after reading encore (leelan oleander rec it) from the southern fan fic review, thanks tracy

oh joy, a lovely happy story, no angst just two people.... well sort of!!    falling in love and enjoying it how refreshing, great chapter, thanks tracy

great chapter, let's see what the plan is, cause i dont think they can cope with seperation, thank tracy

cool chapter, thanks tracy

another funny chapter those girls deserved it and they were planning to do that to bella anyhow 'what goes around comes around'  they would do well to remember that, and bella has made sworn ememies she does not care, enjoyed this and the other extras thanks tracy i'll leave this on alert in case you add more

super chapter, everybody seems to have gotten good lives, they are gettimg adopted officially by the cullens  i liked her pro/con list, rose is pregnant and poor bella is feeling it that bastard is never far away in her memories no matter how much of a god edward is

oh fab chapter,  love the flashback when it was there first time edward was so very patient, its no wonder she misses him so much, but they had a great family dinner together and the edward photo made me giggle

i did have an idea she was pregnant but diddn't want to say in case you did not write it in but you did yipee!! their having a baby a miracle baby at that, and she was offered a fantastic job i love how they have some hot sexy lovin fall asleep and two hours later edward thinks of it  awakes and runs down to the chemist fab chapter

the talk to her baby was quite beautiful and every body knows next stop the wedding  the chat between bella and alice was superb and so funny aug next year ,  two years away she asked hopefully, lets now see alices mad skills in operation she has three weeks to plan a wedding and i'm sure her and esme can  do it as usual fab chapter

another fab chapter, aeroplane sexacapades that was too good, and no sadly not a member of the mile high club myself   great chapter, i know some people are as grumpy as sin whilst pregnant i'm glad to say i was'nt one of them

another emotionaly charged chapter, tha begining bit was fun with the boys taking the mick out of carlisle for swearing, and then poor edward getting the shock he got to move on to   the bit where he seeks comfort from his parents that was was especially heartwarming and at least all the skeletons are out of the closet and bella understands and can allay his fears, all the drama can only serve to make them stronger as a couple they need each other

i think it's a great honeymoon idea and perfect for them and they are making some new friends which is always good edward is already in perfect husband mode arranging her art supplies i believe they will have some good fun times

this honeymoon just gets better and better, nice job lovin it fantastic lemon at the end if i ever get a man i might try this water sex bella is raving about cause you make it sound bloody amazing

they are just having a cool time just kicking back and relaxing all the best elements of a great honeymoon(and great sex of course), i'm glad to hear your family holiday home survived the nasty storm and yes yahtzee who can resist a good board game (we got new moon board game for xmas)

ps is the pineapple thing real or did you make that up?

people not leaving reviews cant believe that lol

i loving this site all my favourite stories keep popping up, i leave this note to any readers like me who skim reviews to get a idea if a story is being enjoyed or not, my advise is READ THIS STORY IT IS AN AMAZING TALE i wont give away any plot but you wont be dissapointed it is fabulously well written and keeps you on the edge of your seat,

to  oleander i read this on twilighted, reviewed there, and loved it thanks

those diaries are heartbreaking that poor woman, i can understand edwards reaction his anger at his mother and in a way i agree, but trouble is  it's all to easy to say "just leave" but when your trapped in that cycle of abuse it is a horrendous task to try to escape in the beginning you believe you can change them or they will change then you move on to giving out too many chances as they persuade you to go back to the relationship  because you want to believe in them and before you know it you cant even find the courage to leave anymore because the abuser has trapped you with threats of violence  your confidence is rock bottom and your self worth is gone it's a nasty situation thats what elizabeths situation sounds like , edward may find that hard to understand being raised with love and respect, i'm glad edward decided not to have him in his life he dosen't need his presence, another fab chapter sad (yes i got my tisseus near by ) but so well written

ok,  well if there is a queue to join to kick sperm donors arse i want to join,  i'm so cross i could spit, i'm an alcoholic and bipolar what a pile of croc as an excuse, even sat in that coffee shop he was not remorsefull  at all in fact he was outright rude and unsympathetic and a total bastard he should have offered explinations if nothing else, it should not have mattered what edward said and then to attack him in the street not once but three times and then bella is attacked i must tell you my heart went up in my mouth for a minute and i was shouting peanut never mind bella, but as edward says he know now for sure what he is, no question, i'm worried edward felt watched at the airport, im also worried i'm attached and concerned about fictional people (should i be lol?) you write so well you cant help but get sucked in