When I heard the twins call Edward and Bella, "Beeward" I had thought they would've assumed it to be the shorten term bitch, like "B" word. Well, at least for Edward to have thought so at first since Bella had used "female dog" when she described the name bitch that she used on Gina. What a beautiful Christmas. I wonder what will become of Emmie's and Rose's marriage. It's too bad she is pregnant or else I'd be all for him to get a separation. 

Learning how to read will boost Bella's self-esteem and give her the key to unlock the world of knowledge. Edward is very patient with her and kind to teach Bella. That in itself will have her thinking he made a world of difference in her life, as well as she becomes to think the world of him. Okay enough with the "world" word; I am getting on my own nerves! It is a shame that unfortunate things we have gone through can greatly effect us in such a negative way that we take drastic measures for the sake of not risking the chance of ever going through a similar situation. Not allowing ourselves to take chances from fear is like living dead. What will it take for Edward to stop letting fear keep him from fully living? I almost want to say he is a coward but, I know being hurt and having trust issues sucks. Maybe I need an escort that looks like Edward, and $8 grand to blow to get blown during this timeout I am taking on men before I am relationship ready. Fuck I wish haha.

I noticed how he said nobody could see the lingerie items except for him! I loved this chapter, so fun!

Bella has her beast, I was afraid said beast was going to pull a New Moon move by keeping her from being in his life. I hope that doesn't happen. As much as angst is good for this plot, I think this had the right amount, for little o'l me anyway. Too much more is difficult too read, but since I am already hooked, (thanks a lot, joking =-) I will be like a hooker on crack, getting my fix with every chapter I read. At the very end, their happily ever after will be a natural high for me. Edward needs anger management, although I love a passionate man, Bella's had enough instability and doesn't need irrational behavior. She has her issues to work on and I love how he has said for her to do it for herself. For too long she has put the needs of others not only ahead of herself, but not doing anything for herself. They need a solid foundation from their friendship and watching them grow and build their relationship has been enjoyed and I am looking forward to more since I am not even half way through this and will start the companion story at the advised time. Since this story is completed and I don't even know if you read them because it may be pointless now, (and this HCV addict clicks on the 'next' tab like a clucker) I haven't reviewed every single chapter. I just do it to show my appreciation for sharing and keeping the story up for others like myself, who are virgins to the story or are hitting it up for round two. Anyhow, I see Edward's struggle within himself over her age, but at 19 she is years ahead on the maturity level in comparison with regular young adults when at the same time in their lives. I was the same, graduating H.S. school at 16 starting my city's local university at 17 with two kids already at age 20 and my third and only unplanned pregnancy, which was a blessing for my husband and I, at age 29. Not that I am married anymore, but not all of us are fortunate having a Beauty and Beast fairytale for life. Although, we should all have it at least for a duration to fully experience life. I'll live vicariously through these two. It makes me grateful, even with my mishaps because the pair have suffered so much, without dismissing Edward's painful events, I especially. think Bella has from day one. She has experienced so much, yet so little, being emotionally and physically abused, neglected and abandoned, held back from hanging a childhood and education, along with being forced from a somewhat dependent, a child whom had her teenage years stolen from her into becoming a responsible independent  'adult' into an overnight mother of two toddler twins instead of just their older sis. Heartbreaking, just so very sad and wrong what the four of them have been handed without deserving. Makes me angry that people hurt people, especially children! Wish I had a fairytale wand to rid them from the world or to change them. And to not be a hypocrite of my own faults to zap the Hell out of me as well for the hatred I have for those. 

My thoughts are that Edward will can Jessica and offer Bella the open nanny position. Guido is Ben and Ms. Honey it's Angela; Marmaduke is Jake and the Hornet is Sam? I am so left in the dark on what is going on. Does Mr. Masen have something to do with Bella's father's murder? It's she getting close to him to get revenge? It confuses me to think that could be possible with the flirting. Maybe bonding with the kids is weighing on her conscience. 

Yay she is the nanny. Finally going to get more info on her next chap I hope.